The Tragedy Of A Life That Doesn't Love You

How My Identical Twin Brother Became Lost to Me

Being an identical twin I have had an active role in life as an individual who was also “one of the twins.”

People often ask what it is ‘like’ to be a twin and I’ve often responded with the usual clichés.

It is difficult to describe for you to understand what being a twin is like, because you're not one. Only 3% of the population is.

What’s it like? Well, you get to know and feel the depths of each other's pain and joy, without the need to speak, across any distances far and wide. Call it spooky twinness at a distance.

I deduce that this is an inbuilt telepathic ability that give twins an insight into what is affecting the other. This ability can be attuned outside of us too, as well as within and we can come to know things through that link with Spirit.

This faculty is available to twins in any context and with any person they wish to understand. We grow up using our psychic abilities. It’s an innate knowing, a form of empathy on steroids.

Unfortunately my twin brother suffered from prolonged acute spiritual anguish that left him distraught, destitute and withdrawn. He underwent a profound spiritual transformation for which he was in no way prepared, that left him dangling like a loose thread, in life.

He was ill equipped to deal with a number of setbacks that followed each other in his late teens and early adult life, from which he still hasn’t been able to recover entirely.

My world was torn asunder and I have at times limped through my life like a spiritual amputee and emotional cripple as a result. I’ve had to struggle and fight, knowing that I was doing it for the both of us. For if I could prevail, so could he.

I believed that if I could overcome spiritual despair it would, similarly to entangled pairs of electrons, produce effects for James.

This is akin to a form of alchemy, from one twin self to another, between twins, because we are essentially connected at source.

Has it helped? I think that maybe it has, although it has taken 30 years. I hope so, I really do. Theres no science for what I am doing, it’s just my own crazy idea, but it’s all I’ve got. Every other person who has had a role to play in this story have let both of us down.

My identical twin and I do not speak or visit each other often, too much having been left unsaid already and anyway, the anguish is always too raw, the passage of time like a river, dividing us up on either side of its banks and leaving us stranded and without unity.

I can never forget what has happened to James. The gentlest and kindest soul that I have ever known. I miss him, so.

He is always in my heart.

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Please find below a few videos of interest, into the life of twins.

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